Bee.Lover

Revenge is bittersweet 

A cozy sword in my heart

I'm over that disaster

Yet we're not apart 

A creature in the corner 

Encroaching in my space 

I've held many creatures 

Void of life

But it's never as hard 

As when it's your own

No pulse, no

Breathing 

Just an empty 

Shell that once was

"Oh little girl,"

They say with distain 

Usually followed by a suggestion on how to change myself 

But I don't want to change 

"Oh little girl,"

With tears in their eyes 

I wonder what I look like

In your eyes.

What I look like

In your dreams. 

Maybe I'll be gone,

But please carry on. 

Don't be shadowed in the dark,

How can you not see,

The true feelings deep in me.

The hard ache of hiding,

It's still not subsiding.

Lying to myself 

"Just put the thoughts on a shelf."

Please stop pretending that you can't tell,

They say it will pass

They say I'll feel better 

"Time will fix it"

"Just put her pictures in a shredder"

But it's not that easy

To just "move on"

I don't think you ever really can