Fated in dreams

I look in the mirror 

Like any girl my age

But I'm repulsed in horror 

At what is on stage

I look at those numbers 

Wait for them to go down again 

114, 113, 112

I know I can't

Wait forever for

That girl to come back

Yet I can't turn 

A new page or

Start on a new chapter 

I think I need her

I'm so afraid 

It's not love

That died long ago 

And in it's wake

Left only lust

Sinful thoughts like never before 

It's engulfing my life

My mind

I can't think