Fated in dreams

I fight everything 

To not turn back

To not run away

But my eyes still 

Land on her face

My feet become rooted 

In the ground

My heart twists

In my chest

My father texted me on Valentine's day 

Three years ago I would've responded

But this year I asked who it was

I had deleted his contact 

I don't regret it 

Because my dad died years ago

I know I can never have her like I want to

If I could even have her like that I wouldn't take it

Not anymore 

But maybe in another lifetime I would 

My heart only beats for her