I look in the mirror
Like any girl my age
But I'm repulsed in horror
At what is on stage
I look at those numbers
Wait for them to go down again
114, 113, 112
But it's never enough
I'm getting thinner
But I still feel fat
So I'll skip another day
111, 110, 109
I'm going to lose my mind
I'll lose track of days
114
Will stare back
With a harmful and shameful gaze
So I'll starve another day
Anything to be "hot"
112, 111, 113
I wish for once this was all a dream
For years when I would look at your face, I saw my future, my life, my whole world in your eyes, but today I for once just saw your face. The same lips that I had once longed to kiss, the same eyes that I would get lost in, yet I felt nothing.
I'll push my dull heart down
Anytime you need me to
And you'll never hear me
Beg you under my breath
Not to leave me
You looked at me
Like I'm a horrible
Burden just now
I know I can't
Wait forever for
That girl to come back
Yet I can't turn
A new page or
Start on a new chapter
I think I need her
I'm so afraid
Comments
Seriously not a good idea
A bit too relatable haha...maybe not a good idea but definitely something it's easy to get trapped in.
Bee, I know so many who deal with thoughts like that, and I've watched them all fall down a really, really scary path that is not worth it in the end, ever. I know it's so, so, sooo easy to fall into that way of thinking, but I promise your health is more important than fitting societies very screwed up view on appearance. If you ever need anyone to talk to or if you need advice or literally anything, I know we're technically strangers but you can always message me!! I promise you your health is SO much more important than trying to mold yourself into something society has wrongfully put upon us. And, please never hesitate to reach out if you ever need someone to talk to!
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