Popcorn

You laugh

It’s a little thing, but you made that smile for me 

and for now I am glad

to sit here and endure this boredom

Because you’re here too

and I’ve never felt anything like this before

Looking in the mirror, I am awakening. Have I always needed so much makeup to conceal my eye bags? I am in a haze, and I am off to work, and it is too early in the morning.

too fat

too skinny

eating too much

eating too little

not good enough

too self confident

around and around it goes

my mind can't stop 

won't stop

if I tell myself this