Popcorn

Yesterday I took a moment outside the cafe

And watched people walking by

You would think upon seeing me

Tea in hand

I was at peace

And you are right

But I also find joy in taking moments to just be

As I stood there

Crying in the rain

I stopped and stared

At the sunset before me

My tears fell faster

As I remembered

The feel of his arms

Around me

And thought of how

Distant he’s been

There was cedar in the beginning and then there were candy canes. 

I did not know kindness isn't always loud,
not the grand gestures, not the
throw-the-coat-over-a-puddle,
because sometimes
it is simply someone sitting on the ground 
just because you did, even though