Conflicting feelings

I'm still stuck 

I thought I was free 

But I was so wrong 

 

I know it's not okay

But I can't resist it 

After all, it's what I really wanted right?

 

I'm trapped by 2 things 

I don't know which is worse 

One I asked for and the other is a curse

 

I bound my feet to stop myself 

But now I'm bound by someone else 

And they're dragging me out 

 

She's so good for me 

But it's so good it's boring 

I want the thrill of danger 

 

With us, it just clicks 

Bee.Lover

VT

16 years old

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  • Nothing anymore

    For years when I would look at your face, I saw my future, my life, my whole world in your eyes, but today I for once just saw your face. The same lips that I had once longed to kiss, the same eyes that I would get lost in, yet I felt nothing.

  • Counting backwards

    I'll push my dull heart down

    Anytime you need me to

    And you'll never hear me

    Beg you under my breath 

    Not to leave me

     

    You looked at me

    Like I'm a horrible 

    Burden just now

  • On a scale

    I look in the mirror 

    Like any girl my age

    But I'm repulsed in horror 

    At what is on stage

     

    I look at those numbers 

    Wait for them to go down again 

    114, 113, 112