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I can’t be the only girl 

Who thinks it’s crazy

How we live in an age

Where asking for the “I” in I love you 

Is normal? 

Because I’m the kind of girl

I keep reaching

for something I know I can't have

But I decide

To waste my energy anyway

All I want is for

you to look at me

The way you look at him

I'm searching for that

To hold on to

It's tearing me apart

Your words echoing in my head

Your eyes shining in my memory 

Im scared of you but it's because of me

I never liked myself 

I am an enigma; forever stepping in front of mirrors attempting to angle myself in the perfect position to be loved; always making myself smaller than I seem in order to be seen.

What you gave me everyday

Was never really love. 

It was toxic, poison, 

You stained my blood black.

All of your words

I realize were all lies. 

Even the ring on my finger