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Outstretched arms reach up

To grasp at something called hope

Hold it close for me

You know it's cold when your tears fall and you can hear them shatter on the concrete roof. You know it's cold when the wind whips by and you hold your sweater closer to stop the chill. 

Something says

"Stay"

Something cold and light whispers

"Go"

Something somewhere dark and deep rumbles

"Come"

Something calls to me

Freezes my bones

I learned

To count to two

In elementary school

Thought I'd count shooting stars

Fireflies

Little things

Counting to two

Seemed so simple

Now I count people who left

Count gravestones

What I have of you

Is memories of a better time

Jokes you made at 9:14 at the dinner table

Now it’s just

Laughter, exuberant grins followed by

Somber friends and silent abandonment

Maybe

One Day you could say

Sorry, or some sort of apology

But I know you can't apologize to my face

Why not?

Do you think my face is

Like a mirror

Shows all your ugly actions,