I can’t pretend anymore
I’m not okay,
I’ve never been okay
And I don’t think I’ll ever be okay
But every day I’m trying
Every day I’m learning to love the flaws he hated
Every day I’m writing
Taking the pain out of my heart and onto the pages
Every day I’m improving
Surrounding myself with people who have a positive influence on my life
Every day
I’m a little closer
To the sunrise.
The hardest part
Wasn’t
Noticing the signs
Hoping they won’t notice the way they hurt you
Knowing they don’t care
Leaving first
Telling yourself to move on
To remember
Is to live in the past
Unable to forget
The wonder and happiness
That emerged from the darkness
To remember
Is insanity
To do the same thing repeatedly
I let the phone ring when he calls;
He’s done enough wrong today.
There’s a moment of silence,
Broken by the fourth FaceTime call.
I’m tired of the ringing;
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