I am an enigma; forever stepping in front of mirrors attempting to angle myself in the perfect position to be loved; always making myself smaller than I seem in order to be seen. The mirror never minimizes though; only my self-worth and the infallible expansion of the earth and its distorted heart; the murderous, evil hands that trench through my body and pick me apart. None of the pieces are beautiful.
I am a snake, slipping myself in and out of places that I do not belong; constantly praying to find my one true home, yet forever stuck in a sea of gold and I am always the rock at the bottom; worthless, wretched, ruined and worn through – but was there really anything to wear? Some people are simply rags; soaking up everyone’s water in an attempt to find their own; thoroughly wrung out and yet the droplets of clarity still transfigures to blood.
I am a sore thumb in a room of perfectly perched fingers and my nail beds are dirt-filled from digging after treasure. Shovel after shovel, the removal of gloves, raw red and blistered – I am still digging to find mine, to understand what love I should reciprocate in exchange for the work of my hands. 'X-marks the spot' is written on everyone else’s map but mine.
Nobody ever tells you about the dark side of the world; the eclipse that drips in front of the light in your life and will never unfurl; there is no bone clad armor to protect you from this; and the indent on your bruised peach heart will never, ever drip golden, always devastatingly red.
- i am so disgustingly human
Comments
oh HELL yes! this is so beautifully written! the prose poetry makes everything blend in, and you can't see how excellent each word and fluid sentence is until you peer closer. I love the similes and the way we can all feel for this is so terrifying: so disgustingly human. SO GOOD PLEASE KEEP WRITING! :D
Omg tysm for the compliments and constructive feedback on my poem :) You're literally so nice!
I love the line "Some people are simply rags; soaking up everyone’s water in an attempt to find their own;" Sometimes I find myself consuming other peoples words, art, music in order to better understand life and find my own truths.
Thank you! I am so glad and honoured that this poem is relatable and that it's touching to you <3
This is SO GOOD!!! It’s so relatable and touching. I absolutely love everything about this, and it really made me feel like someone understood. Thank you so much for writing this!! Please keep writing!!!
Thank you so much <3. I am glad that my poetry made you feel seen! That is what I write my poems for.
This needs to go in a book someday or plastered onto a newspaper, you are one of the incredible inspiring writers pathing the path for others, please keep writing!
Awwee thanks for taking the time to comment this! You don't know how encouraging this is to me.
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