Sophie Dophie

How much time do you need to finish your writing? Asks my teacher 

A lifetime I say.

For how can I ever write down all the words in my head, dying to come out

I’m not old enough to vote

I'm not old enough to drive

I’m not old enough to drink

I’m not even old enough to go to the bathroom without asking permission??

Once upon a time there was a puzzle, a picture perfect puzzle, that was me.

But now pieces are falling out of, instead of into, place

Slipping and sliding and just out of reach

No matter how much I hate you

And curse at your name

I still hold the fear that

I am to blame

Even if everyone believed me
And cast you away

Do you remember those days when we would play pretend and imagine for fun?

Now it’s different

We pretend that everything will be okay even though we cannot tell

She fears men. She fears what they’re capable of, what they can get away with, their strength and their power. The ironic thing is that her greatest desire and wish is for validation, to be liked. Specifically by men.