little elephants

you were obsessed with the taste of my lips
you loved the smell of my perfume
you said my eyes were beautiful

when you left

i wanted to cut off my lips and give them to you
i wanted to give you my perfume

you tell me the view is beautiful
you never want to leave
you tell me that I would love it

my shoulders still have bruises
you used my body as a ladder
climbing farther and father
I couldn’t see you anymore

maybe one day I will walk the earth again
bare feet, the mud between my toes
maybe one day I'll hold your hand again
pulling you close to me
maybe one day I will see your face again
the one who taught me about love

beep
hello? are you there
i know it said leave a message but i thought i heard a click like you picked up.
maybe you didn’t and i’m spiraling
it’s okay. i don’t know why i called but i miss you.

i planted our love in spring
i dug up our love in winter
i no longer wanted to have our hearts buried in the soil of my yard
the snow burned by bare hands as i tried aimlessly to free my heart
the soil was frozen

we grew together
our roots went deep into the ground
we would huddle in winter to keep warm
in the spring we would hold hands and see who could sprout the highest