your heart as fertilizer

i planted our love in spring
i dug up our love in winter
i no longer wanted to have our hearts buried in the soil of my yard
the snow burned by bare hands as i tried aimlessly to free my heart
the soil was frozen
i clawed at the earth but it didn’t give it back
the earth wanted what i had planted it kept my heart
my heart no longer grew
it rotted and decayed next to yours
my heart became food for the maggots
my heart sprouted mushrooms in the fall beautiful to look at but dangerous to eat
years after i dug up my heart
i found yours still there
i didn’t touch it
i didn’t want to try save your heart again
so i left it there
your heart is still in my yard
it became soil for my gardens
my heart begs for it sometimes
but those memories are long gone now