What If I Lose You Today?

I still think about the way things were back then

With the unpredictable fear of tomorrow

It still haunts me

Like a ghost I can never rid myself of

I wish I had done more

I know I could’ve done more

And I hate to think I could’ve lost you

The feeling hits me late at night

And I tell myself that you’re all right

But there’s always a fear in the depths of my heart

And I’m scared that your light will turn dark

It reminds me of the way my mind used to race

Every time I heard your name

What if you never get better?

What if this stays forever?

What if this is the day

Your health falls into disarray 

Is this the day I lose you?

What if I lose you today?

           What if I lose you today?

I’ll never be okay

          If I lose you today

What if I lose you today?

            What if I lose you today?

I need you to be okay

          Because I need you today

If I lost you that day

I’d never be okay 

Because you’re my best friend

And this can’t be our end

The feeling hit me late last night

Please promise me you’re all right.

-Lucy