Losing Control

Every day I spend 

Afraid  

Of what you might do to me

Every word you say is like a gunshot

To the chest.

At last after three years of  you

I am done. 

After three years 

Of trying to keep my cool 

I lost it.

All of the rage 

Stored over the course of three years 

Finally boils over.

I scream.

I scream as loud as I humanly can.

Letting all of the fear

Hatred 

And anxiety

Finally come out 

Like a volcano erupting.

I lose control.

Because I have had 

Enough.

GhostSlayer

VT

14 years old

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