To All the Confusing People in My Life

To the first one,
Yesterday you talked to me,
For the first time since after.
And it was because I was so sick I was shaking and crying and fell asleep in a corner of our classrom
(Which isn't like a normal classroom and has pillows all piled up in a corner)
And everyone was checking in on me.
And you asked if I was okay.
You must have been really worried if you bothered to talk to me.
But today you talked to me too,
I find myself asking if we could be together again.
Please stop messing with my brain.
To the complicated one,
I miss you too much.
You sneak into my dreams too much.
And when your sad, the whole world is sad.
You make me laugh more than anything else,
But you make me cry too.
Just not when you're there.
I cry because all the times you've said something mean,
You crush my shred of self confidence.
But somehow I find myself taking your side in aurguments.
And defending you behind your back.
Pick a side and stay there please.
Even if it's not with me.
To the ex enemy one,
I think I can safely update your status to frienemy.
Yes it's a thing.
Because you really do care don't you?
And I don't mind helping you as much.
But you cannot ruin my mind and chase me just because you know your faster and will chatch up to me soon.
That's really all I have to say to you.
To myself.
Stop destroying your brain with negitivity,
Watch what you say around certain people,
i.e. don't sing all I want for Christmas is you in front of your crush and when he says "No, not you, me!" Do not say exaclty.
Highschool is in your future,
Prepare for it.
Don't deny you will have bittersweet goodbyes.
Get ready for lots of tears,
You'll miss them all.