meandpaul

Standing in the streets, 
The darkness of the city lights 
Washes over you. 

The joy of the summer fades, 
The sorrow of the fall is a current feeling. 

The streets were bright and alive, much larger than in previous months. The air, was filled with so much heat you could practically see it.

I want to freeze this moment 
so I can save it for as long as I live. 

I want to take in everything – 
the sounds, smells, view, 
the peace. 

I still dream about that year. 
I still can remember everything there: 
The sight, sound, smell, everything. 

With every year that goes past, 
I hold the memories closer and closer to my heart. 

Deep in my heart,
I still wonder what went wrong. 

Somewhere along the way, 
Everything fell. 

Every day something falls, 
But these days I can't seem to build it back up. 

I wish I wasn't born like this,
As if my life depends on the time, 
I can't wait or it'll be too late. 

I look at myself and feel the same disgust,
As all those years ago.