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They tell me I can trust them with anything.

They tell me not to hide.

They tell me that they won't tell anyone.

But...

They never think about why I can't trust them.

They never think about why I hide.

Everyone could make excuses

for when the bears showed up late

to the party

fashionably late

they called it

but when the bears came early

no one

could explain the questions

away.

They're obsessed with social media and two-second dating

we talk about climate change and ski racing

they'll talk about what they're supposed to

we'll talk about the world's problems and what to do

My father texted me on Valentine's day 

Three years ago I would've responded

But this year I asked who it was

I had deleted his contact 

I don't regret it 

Because my dad died years ago

There are many moments

Where I don’t feel 

Deserving

Of the attention

Today I’m reminding myself

Of how far I’ve come,

All the years I’ve spent

Living in pain

Home is where you dream. Where your ideas come to life. A rhythm of thoughts making themselves known, untangled.