IceGalaxy

i want to say
im fine
 

i close my eyes
turn on headphones
spend a good portion of time fiddling with bluetooth
press play.

color

everywhere.

like through a 
vr set. 
silver dashes on this side of the room

dont say
she's just like me
 

my middle name is gayle.
this is my grandmother's middle name. 
my grandmother was the first woman
in her family to get a 
degree in college, something
deemed impossible at the time.
regardless, she did it and

i love you.
i swear i do.
i will always love you,
no matter what.
but i don't love you
in the way that you want me to.
i don't love you
in the way that you love me. 

i can't tell you.
i want to,

i sit on my bed,
a pencil in hand, 
a notebook balanced carefully between my legs,
not a single idea about what i should write.
i can't think of anything.
the pencil won't write the
words in my brain that i