When you let the moment pass by

I should have told you, 

“I like you”. 

Just a little earlier. 

I planned every word, 

In my head and outloud. 

I wrote down your name in my books margins, 

And added tiny hearts at the end. 

I went down rabbit holes in my mind, ‘

And dreamed and dreamed. 

But I’ve never been enough, 

For your or anyone at all. 

(That’s a lie I don’t want to admit).

“We are just friends bro”.

And I’ll confess, 

It broke me down to say,

“Sure”. 

Than pretend I had not wanted, 

To grab your hand while walking home. 

But I’ve never been able to meet your eyes, 

Maybe you knew and I was not… 

And I’ll confess, 

After all these years,

(Three to be exact).

I still dream and dream, 

Even as I wonder if I’m too late. 

After everything, 

I lost you, 

Who maybe could have been. 

But I’ve come to terms, 

And every time I see you, 

“Hello friend”.

Is alright. 

(that’s a lie because I can’t let you go).