when the party’s over

ill call you when the party's over

walking home with tears dripping

my shoes dangling from my hand-

parallel to the ground

possibly a bruise on my heart

possibly a scar over my lips

possibly a cloth over my eyes

but my brain on high alert

ill call you when the party's over

when all the girls go home with their chosen stands

when all the polaroids fall from the sky

when all the lipstick stains vanish from necks

when im leaving 

and you're not with me

ill call you when the party's over

when ive had my fun and 

you've done god knows what with them

ill call you when the party's over

when I can't walk straight and 

my body and mind can't take any more of my abuse

ill call you

ill call you

ill call you

but my arrival

will only announce my departure. 

inspired by Billie Eilish's song "when the party's over"