Reckless Abandon

Sometimes I feel like I'm not really living my life 
just an obsever watching from afar 
Like I have no control 
over the way I feel, or act
reckless abandon 
watching my life slowly,
fall apart
Driving my life over the speed limit
​Just to feel the rush of it all
Watching as my friends become more distant,
My family less loving 
My brain is confused,
by my lack of enthusiam 
For everything I used to enjoy 
My life is out of control, 
And it's headed for disaster.