Pressure

They act like it's an anomaly how I
Spend my summer days studying
Yet I lament all of my missed
Opportunities to live and it's
Not like I have a choice but
That's my own sinister fault they
Say and they're not wrong
For my surliness only
Sprouts because I put on too
Much pressure again and
I'm impossibly ubiquitous with
Narrowing time but I'm far too
Hyperviligent and they think I
Enjoy torturing myself to
Study and win but I wouldn't
Mind eccentrically skipping
And finally living
For just a day.

elise.writer

VT

15 years old

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