Playing House

one day I wake up 
and my room has been cleaned
but I didn't clean it
and my photos are gone
but I didn't take them down
I try the lamp at my bedside 
but the lamp doesn't work
suddenly I'm at the table 
though I don't remember going down the stairs
I'm at the dining room table
but we never eat in the dining room
my dad's reading the newspaper
even though we don't get the newspaper
then  I'm on the living room couch and I'm holding a book
but the book's bigger than it should be
and I'm in the middle
but I've never read it before
I look at the  book
and the pages are blank
I touch my face  with my hand and feel
cold porcelain
a wave of panic crashes over me
I drop the book
I can't pick it up
I am completely paralyzed by fear
because I've realized where I am
I've realized what I am 
I'm a doll in a dollhouse 
I open my mouth to scream
then I stop
the panic and the fear is gone
because I've remembered I'm a doll in a dollhouse
and dolls don't have feelings 
except when they
forget 
they're
dolls