My Eyes

For so long,
I have listened to others,
others' opinions,
others' words.
I have heard them 
speak,
I have heard them debate,
and I have only 
wished a single thing,
to be able to know
what I agree with.
In this world,
I am realizing that 
there are many,
many struggles,
that there are  
things that so many 
people feel strongly about,
and I am finding that 
I truly don't know
how I feel about these topics.
What is my opinion?
For a while now,
I would listen to those I 
know closely,
and I would nod
as they talked about 
their thoughts on something.
I would immediately think,
"This must be the right decision
if it's coming from them."
However,
if there is anything I've learned
from experiencing this pandemic,
it is that not everyone agrees.
Not everyone agrees,
even if they are friends,
even if they are family,
and that is alright.
I no longer feel like my opinion
has to depend
on the opinions of those whom
I trust,
whom I have gotten to know.
I want to find my own opinion,
I want to have my own strong feelings,
and I want to know how to share them in 
the right way,
in a respectful way,
in a civilized way. 
I want to look at the world from my eyes,
not from others',
but mine.