I wish I could

I wish I could,

You know

Just let things go

But my head

Keeps going

going 

going

going

gone.

Never to be the same again

Thoughts during the day turn to daydreams 

during times of peace

Turn to nightmares

I wake paralyzed with fear

From my past actions

Never to be forgotten

I wish I could,

You know

Stop all this negative

emotion

energy

thought

Just persevere

Trust me

I've tried

I'd like to leave

Most do

Something always holds me back

Is it fear?

The unknown?

Confusion?

Now I'll never know

freedom

equity

peace

And now you know why I can never leave