Homesick

Home sick.
that tends to be a common phrase,
one that I don't understand well,
I don't have siblings,
no attachment,
never in one place,
never with one person,
never connected.
I used to think it was a super power.
maybe I should say "alone-sick?"
because I'm never one to be around others,
all the time,
in fact my brain is my safe spot, 
I like laying alone in a different space,
Because if I'm alone in any space,
im home.
my home has been built from years of hurt,
being torn from what I wanted, 
always stepping over my toes to just,
be.
I am alone, and I am home, I shift, but I am never homesick,
I would have to have a home,
but instead I have myself.