grumpy

i'm not grumpy

i'm always happy

you say i seem grumpy on bad days

and thats why its called a bad day.

its always me

and never you

why is it always my fault but never yours?

you tug at my sweater sleeve begging me to stay

but i get dragged along every day

by you

its not my problem

i don't need to change.

i don't need to change for you.

i'm me and thats true.

i seem grumpy but thats because of you.

i never wanted to change but i was forced to.

i do all this just to stay friends with you

its such an ugly fear

an ugly fear of losing someone like you

mmae_ee

VT

13 years old

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  • the journal

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    ever since i was 6.

    sure back then my entries were just doodles of my day,

    but it still helped me convey my emotions.


     

    i was at the shop with my mom,

  • lunch table thoughts.

    i sit at the lunch table with my few friends,

    i have so many thoughts at this time,

    i am silent.


     

    i need new friends.

    i think.

    new friends that don't treat me like i'm dirt.