The Girl I Used To Be

I told my notebook about you 

She used to love you, the girl I used to be 

Now she can’t even remember the last time I said I was head over heels for you 

None of it was true, she could even agree 

You knew that too, you were even in the VIP 

So not only has she lost you, but she lost her best friend 

Not just you, but her too 

She somehow messed up and she won’t talk to her either 

>>> 

I’m sorry

I apologize to everyone 

All the people who know me

I feel bad for how I act, talk, sound, see,  hear, 

Everything 

I wish I could take it back, the girl I used to be 

I wish I could bring her back 

I miss her 

I miss the girl everyone knew months ago

I miss my best friend 

I miss it all 

And I’m sorry 

I’m sorry I couldn’t be the one you could love

Or the one you could trust 

I’m sorry I was only there when you were feeling down

Or when your brain is fogged with lust

I’m sorry I couldn’t help you 

And because of that, I was thrown away and left in the dust