Forgiving Sadness

There is a quiet now that was not before,

Not a quiet in the sounds I hear but a quiet in the mind.

A quiet that only came after the screams.

Those screams although painful were necessary,

As high as they could go and as deep as they could cut,

There was something inside of me that was loud.

Something that I had stifled for so long, 

I had stopped remembering who I was, 

But knew only who I could not bear to show,

She was screaming inside of me.

She had anger and pain,

It was when she grew quiet and whispered,

“I forgive you,”

 That I allowed myself to release the prisoner I had held so close.

Once I allowed her to oxidize, 

She joined me in a sadness that seemed more than I could bear.

And yet all around me,

And the world became quiet,

My mind became silent,

And I felt myself there.