a failing grade

Is it possible to fail with an A+

Or do I just feel like I'm failing myself?

I'm the best one in your class,

But I still send emails making excuses for my declining grades. 

Maybe it's because I see the pattern,

Like it's happened before and before. 

Maybe I'm being extra-extra-cautious,

Or maybe I feel like a perfect score is an F. 

Everyone tries to reassure me that my grades are fine,

And they say to put my academics first. 

None of it helps; however,

The A+ still stabs my heart repeatedly, over and over.  

And what if I'm failing my favorite class?

What if I am falling behind?

I cannot just pass it off as nothing,

And keep destroying my mind.