oh, how hard it is to watch them
knees pressed to the ground, eyes red
how could i have let you down? i
don’t know what to think- nausea and guilt are synonymous- have i done all
i could? was there something more? god, i'm
sorry. so sorry.
you hug me, and i can feel you shaking. i wonder if i could ever be as strong as you.
(you seem to think i
already am.)
it’s time to leave now. the home we’ve known for two months, the one we fought so hard for, is no longer a place for us to stay. atleast, at least i
will get to go back. most of us will, but you, you all-
will move on.
and i’ll see us all in the hallways, grocery store parking lots, passing assemblies, and
briefly, in the touch of a smile, we’ll remember what it was like, home. how it felt to be so loved.
though, i despise the inevitability of forgetting- it aches, and such is the price of devotion
i couldn’t imagine existing with out, but to wash the dirt from my elbows and knees
feels to wash the memories away, too, and so i delay it.
beyond it all;
one of the biggest tragedies in life is that we’ll never know how much we’re cared for; i see that now. i hope you do, too.
i wish we could have given you more. we all do.
(and one day, it’s all just another scar.)
thank you.
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