After all of this

It's only February 

and look at this world, 

I want to know if we'll 

get through all of this.

And on the other side 

will I be still standing,

or will I keep falling like I am now,

and I'll fail my way out of college

and out of high school

and out of life. 

in the past couple of years

i've been thinking about getting a flat

with my best friend in London

after we've graduated. 

now the idea seems more compelling,

we could get away from all this;

i'd rather live in the monarchy

than in this twisted form of democracy. 

is it bad i don't want to hear the news?

not when it sends me crying on the floor,

how is it i can still feel guilty for just living?

i don't know, 

but i know we now lock our bedroom doors. 

after all of this

will we still be alive?

i'm too young for it, 

hello 2025...