Sawyer Fell

Sawyer Fell

PA

19 years old

Posts

  • Finding sanctuary in showers

    - inspired by Emily Dickinson: who saw holiness in most unexpected of places.

    Hot showers are almost baptisms
    because you have the painfully mortal choice 
    to either speak to God or wash your hair.
  • Endearingly Yours, Vlad III

    I had the privilege of stealing your last breath
    so that we may kiss each other for eons to come.
    Although the disease nearly manifested your death
    I wouldn’t change our gothic story for any ransom.
  • 17

    Seventeen is shamelessly begging for an attempt at childhood
    after you have devoted each year since birth to the preparation
    of becoming a voice to be heard and ultimately reckoned with.
  • November

              Clothing
    There are so many dresses I have bought for events I will never
    be invited to, but I do not give them away just in case I am.
    I will bring home new hoodies knowing I will wear the same 

Loves

  • death bed

    You push me out to sea

    With every toll life takes. 

    My wood is deteriorating 

    With thousands of years. 

     

    I've held village girls

    And I've held mothers. 

  • Unbecoming

    The streets have teeth and we hold our fingers with enough space for the others and drink cider on a corner where the ceiling above us blinks blue-blue-blue onto her tonsil-pink dress and someday I hope I never have to see it in a suitca

  • january to july

    in the months of darkness and cold, i never stopped writing.

    i just kept it all to myself. every night, my own religion

    pages of pen poised on paper, pouring my heart out

  • Acceptance before Change

    On September 2 of 2022, I packed three short sleeve shirts, two long sleeve shirts, and four pairs of pants into a backpack and left my house in Sharon, VT, for four months on an intensive expedition semester school: Kroka Expeditions’ L

  • My lovely ex

    I walk through the graveyard, carefully avoiding the flowers on the graves. It’s a yearly trip to keep up appearances. I hated coming here. I sigh stopping at the grave marked William Piller.