IceGalaxy

is it worth it
is the pain you hold close to your heart
worth the happiness you get from me
and yet
i'm the one causing the pain.
is it worth it
checking my playlist captions again and again

When he was six years old
his family moved from the crowded city
to the stillness of the countryside, a
kid once raised by tall smokestacks,
a constant stream of chatter in the back of his head, and

i want you to know
i hate being your ex
i hate how i constantly remember how i left
i hate how i could never say anything against you
i hate how scared i was to do one simple thing
i hate how i acted
but i love you

they've always said
"you're 13
you don't know love
you're too young to experience love"
but 
they've been married 37 years
they fight every day
their child comes to school with long sleeves during summer

i'll be floating on a cloud
swimming with sparkling seals
singing with golden angles from hell as my backing vocals
initiating a temorary christmas truce with my anxiety
and someone'll say something-
idk what

multiply that by 100
thats how far apart we really are
5 feet apart
multiply that by a million
thats how far apart we feel-

well
thats how far apart 
i feel from you
now


fuck it.