Amelia_v

I will admit I loved him

All his flaws disappeared

The weird way he grinned

His work-worn hands

The smell of sawdust and woods

In every particle of skin 

He was the only thing I could think of

I hate that you have some sort of power over me

Not the love of your life

Not even sure you call me a friend

You have me crying every night 

Wondering what I should change

Would you love me 

sweat rolling down my back,

ice cold once it meets frozen peas,

pressed on my lower back,

water ring on the wooden table,

seltzer chilly and fresh,

computer complaining about the heat,

i hold my breath 

count to 20

maybe if i pretend nothing is wrong 

the tears won't fall

i squeeze my body small

maybe if i get tiny

no one will see me break apart