Abriatis

words said over and over again
blowing breezes, lush grasses,
blue skies and overful with butterflies
snakes and rakes left out from work

words maybe said not so much
dark stars, dying cars
closed nooks and open crannies

a pounding heart
too loud in my ears
shaking fingers, twitching eyes
aching legs let me know i've stretched too much

gasping breaths cut short
a rile down below
gripped hands and a barely-let out

to feel;

what is it?
to feel emotionally (nothing)?
to feel physically (everything)?

i can feel goosebumps
up the back of my neck
everytime you speak

but i cannot feel
the riling in my stomach,

my long-awaited trip 
to a famous music hall
has been cancelled.

sporting events,
through spring break,
can't have spectators.

it's likely that my music trip
to boston, ma, will
also be cancelled.

she said,
"don't make others suffer
for your personal hatred."

she said,
"treat others as you
would like to be treated."

she said, 
"be kind.
please."

she said,

hey, hey
you pushed at me with that smile of yours
one i can never turn down

want to go to denny's after the performance?
your hands in mine, pleading,
making me red and look away